Coffee and Jesus

This past week I've seemed to have got myself in a dilemma. I keep going around in circles, like some lost child trying to find a friend. I'm in this state of affairs because of one thing- I'm not giving enough time to God. For some reason this week I've practically stopped speaking to Him, asking Him or even concentrating on Him. It's almost like I keep forgetting that He is with me. Always. Even on my day off, sat in my pajamas on my laptop, drinking a cup of coffee, He's right here with me. So why do I keep pushing Him to one side and saying 'I'll talk to you later, I'll pray to you later, I'll put it on my to do list'?

 Did you know I actually have a to do list now?! I wake up each morning with a whole handful of tasks to complete. My mind would get so scattered that I needed something to keep me organised. 

I honestly, whole-heartedly write on my to do list: 'Read my bible' or 'spend time with Jesus.' I'm writing this to remind myself in black and white how bad that is. Because in those few seconds of me writing that...I could be speaking to Him. 

So let's say I'm sat having a coffee with Jesus. What would happen? Well, like with most of my friends that I go for coffee with, I'd tell them about the important parts in my life, and then they tell me the important stories happening in their life...

So I'm sat facing him, two hands wrapped around my mug. So, why don't I do that with Him? I should tell him about my week, my month, my worries.

So what next? Well, my 'coffee date' would probably then offer me some advice, a shoulder to cry on, a helping hand.

Ring any bells, Alice? 

Jesus can do all of those things and so much more. 

But what would Jesus actually tell me to do?

I think he'd tell me to stop noticing everything around me and start doing. I have an interesting habit of being very aware of people, moments, problems, situations and not actually doing anything about it. 

Since Soul Survivor I've started to be so much more aware of my heart. I no longer try and blame others for a problem and instead search through my own actions. The problem is that, yeah, I can find so many things that need changing...but I don't actually get up and do it. 

I think Jesus would tell me that life only starts once I stop sitting around and expecting Him to do it all for me. He'd tell me that I'm stronger than I think I am, and that a selfless heart is a wonderful heart. So maybe that's what I need to aim for...

This blog post is my way of reflection, to show the world that it's time to do and not just to expect.

I forget that Jesus isn't just my teacher and my saviour and my comforter...He's my friend too.

So my challenge everyday this month is to start my morning with a cup of coffee, with my bible and notepad in front of me. I'm going to start reading through the Gospel, spending time on daily devotions and telling Jesus everything, asking Him questions and just letting His love wash over me.

'Life begins once Jesus becomes the reason you live it' 

and what a beautiful situation to get yourself in...living for Jesus.